hey guys sorry for posting absolute malarkey recently in terms of art

minecraft create mod has been consuming my days recently and i've been playing it in favor of acknowledging hygeine and health and doing actually cool stuff

that's pretty much all i've been doing, i built a shitty ass railway in it called "deathline co." where i can pretend my awful design choices are actually intentional and are meant to look bad as i ignore the awful fucking railyard behind the village

aside from that icl i do not do shit at all in my life so i can't really ramble about any life stories here, the most i do is go on walks sometimes and dress like a fucking freak, alternating between sweatpants, stained t shirts and crocs, and the same thing but with a beanie and some vans shoes

it's not all bad though, been practicing with my drawing more since i've been staying inside these days and i've been posting them to bluesky because i view that as where i can dump all the doodles i'd get mutilated for anywhere else

i would like to make better stuff but like half of the time my art is just like quickly made shit i cant lie

i always have this mindset of "DO THIS QUICKLY DO THIS FAST OR THEY'RE GOING TO SKIN YOU ALIVE AND BOIL YOU LIKE SOUP" for whatever reason and so i just put expectation on myself that isn't ever actually there

i've been looking into stuff like camera angle meanings or whatever and even though theres a 50/50 chance i actually wind up utilizing that stuff i still think its cool

stuff probably will come soon i'm just in a bit of a weird funk right now cause if i don't make art for more than a week i feel physically wrong

and of course because of that i'll spend no time on the actual art itself and just crank some bullshit out 💔 i seriously cannot spend more than a day or two on an art piece, i dont know what it is but there's something that makes me rush it and it's like the exact opposite of what i do want to do...i wanna make GOOD ART!!! NOT BAD ART!!! D:<

but anyways that's enough rambling for now, here's a picture of me staying up at 2 in the morning playing minecraft (it is 8 am as i type this btw and i have not slept)